Yes, I am in college. Thank goodness! Yes, I survived! Hmm, I'm not even talking to my parents now. Kinda sad.

I have gone through a long evolution of life, perspective, situation. It's quite scary and often I still quite alone and unwhole. I don't know whether there is just something I'm not use to seeing. Maybe I feel like I'm missing out on something that is already there. I find it for a momment in a drive along the coast on a fresh day. I lose it when I still lie in bed and mistrust all humanity.

Iono. There's a lot we don't know. Let's just try to learn as much as we can. What do we value in life?

Sometimes I want to run away from school. Sometimes I want to spend a long time finding out the mysteries to our DNA.

For now, I have settled for a wonderful little photo class. It is a step outside my comfort bubble. I revisit old memories. I had my first class yesterday. We had to print 5 landscape/scenic photos. I went out to the beach that I had never been to. Took 138 photos in 2 hours. Picked my best to print. I had to get critiqued first cuz I was going to have to leave class early for a practice midterm. And I liked my photos. I just was afraid I wouldn't get a "pat on the back". But...I DID!!!! I did really really well! The teacher (who I look up to very much) and the class (full of people twice my age...haha, they think I'm a grad student) liked them as well!!!! I was so happy I did so well on my first assignment. I didn't even have much time. It was kinda stressful which I dont' want it to be.

I have always loved photography w/ much passion, though an awe from afar sometimes. I stand and I want to dip my eyes into the place that much better photographers go. You know, the really pro pro ones. Lol.

Time to do hw...but...

Happy for me? I am. That's all that should matter anyway, right. I went through my Spain pictures and it wasn't so bad anymore. It kinda shed more light on the better parts of the trip.